why I blog
for quite a few reasons. reasons that belong in a blog. irony? bad joke?
there are things you can't say out loud. not because they are super private or politically incorrect but because somethings can't be articulated in the amount of time one has in a conversation. i.e. a break up or your relationship with your parents.
for me, ive always had a hard time sorting what to and what not to say. how to I get my message across without over or under explaining. I obviously don't have the strongest social skills so relaying stories or giving opinions aren't my forte. unfortunately, having social skills are necessary with basic communication. telling a person you're busy and can't make it to something shouldn't require more than a 10 second explanation. someone like me however, feels the need to say everything. I say the what to and what not to say. so I blog out. get to the just of what is and isn't worth sharing.
im insecure and have social anxiety. I care way too much about what people think of me. and even that previous sentence I can't get out. its a cross between my insecurities, anxiety and the negative stigma surrounding having baggage. I'm not a cool kid. I never have been. trying not to give a fuck is actually giving a fuck. I should be able to function in society without thinking so much about what people think of me. ultimately it doesn't matter whether something thinks im a loser but for whatever reason I can't get over these feelings in the moment. so I blog about my insecurities and anxiety.
most heavier subjects are hard to talk about and are often better left unsaid. so I blog. because I need to get it out, I can't keep everything to myself. keeping everything in and boggled can leave a girl feeling crazy. I don't always need to speak to someone, rant with another person. a lot of the time my feelings aren't even tangible. its just a need or feeling to get something off my chest. theres no judgement associated with blogging.
I low key like attention. although im not sharing this blog, I wouldn't be gutted if someone found it.
I love the feeling of typing on my new MacBook Air. I just saved up and bought this new toy and I feel like my productivity has doubled since. but I don't actually have a lot to do. I create playlists for my spin class, check my email, shop lululemon and a few other pretty unnecessary things. and I also have quite a bit of free time and I don't do well with free time. so im here blogging for lengthy amounts of time on my expensive new toy.
I could be doing other things. destructive things. truth is, im very healthy with a lot of unhealthy habits. such as substance abuse and binge purging. every moment I spend focusing on myself, my best self, im avoiding self harm. I deserve to have my time spent on me. when im blogging im spending a lot of time with myself. the most honest and truest time one can spend with someone. open and sharing by blogging.
I love to write. although ive never considered pursuing it as a career, ive always loved to write. im a very naturally create person and ideas flow freely through me. I don't typically begin these blogs with a lot of purpose but as I go I become ore confident and enjoy it more. I love that moment right after completing a blog when I look back at it. not even the content honestly, just the size of it. the amount of words, how the paragraphs are aligned, how long it takes to scroll. I love it. I love writing. I love blogging.
how good does typing feel though, amiright or amiright???????
therapeutic. I need to get my feelings out and sometimes this is the best way. if something is driving me absolutely nuts, I write it out and suddenly I feel more at ease. like a weight has been lifted. that also gives me an opportunity to reread my thoughts and sort through them. ask myself if im being rational. ranting feels so good.
blogging is also a lot of fun. all other reasons aside, I really do enjoy it a lot. for all the reasons above but simply, because it makes me feel good. its the same sensation I get while im dancing, running or spin.
people don't always listen which can be a huge bummer. I trust my friends and feel comfortable talking to them but I know sometimes they don't always wanna hear my ramble. sometimes I don't even wanna hear myself ramble however, my blog always listens and loves it when I ramble. thanks blog for always being there for me
I blog because I can! im so fortunate to be able to read and write on technology that supports my blogging. ill always be incredibly grateful.
journaling is great for reminiscing. I always love looking back on previous entries. reliving moments from my past. the thoughts and feelings I had during different events that I almost forgot about!!! rereading old entries is a great way to tract your personal development and laugh at how ridiculous you once were. some old memories trigger a variety of feelings that I always love to experience.
see, I need to blog. I have a lot to say!
there are things you can't say out loud. not because they are super private or politically incorrect but because somethings can't be articulated in the amount of time one has in a conversation. i.e. a break up or your relationship with your parents.
for me, ive always had a hard time sorting what to and what not to say. how to I get my message across without over or under explaining. I obviously don't have the strongest social skills so relaying stories or giving opinions aren't my forte. unfortunately, having social skills are necessary with basic communication. telling a person you're busy and can't make it to something shouldn't require more than a 10 second explanation. someone like me however, feels the need to say everything. I say the what to and what not to say. so I blog out. get to the just of what is and isn't worth sharing.
im insecure and have social anxiety. I care way too much about what people think of me. and even that previous sentence I can't get out. its a cross between my insecurities, anxiety and the negative stigma surrounding having baggage. I'm not a cool kid. I never have been. trying not to give a fuck is actually giving a fuck. I should be able to function in society without thinking so much about what people think of me. ultimately it doesn't matter whether something thinks im a loser but for whatever reason I can't get over these feelings in the moment. so I blog about my insecurities and anxiety.
most heavier subjects are hard to talk about and are often better left unsaid. so I blog. because I need to get it out, I can't keep everything to myself. keeping everything in and boggled can leave a girl feeling crazy. I don't always need to speak to someone, rant with another person. a lot of the time my feelings aren't even tangible. its just a need or feeling to get something off my chest. theres no judgement associated with blogging.
I low key like attention. although im not sharing this blog, I wouldn't be gutted if someone found it.
I love the feeling of typing on my new MacBook Air. I just saved up and bought this new toy and I feel like my productivity has doubled since. but I don't actually have a lot to do. I create playlists for my spin class, check my email, shop lululemon and a few other pretty unnecessary things. and I also have quite a bit of free time and I don't do well with free time. so im here blogging for lengthy amounts of time on my expensive new toy.
I could be doing other things. destructive things. truth is, im very healthy with a lot of unhealthy habits. such as substance abuse and binge purging. every moment I spend focusing on myself, my best self, im avoiding self harm. I deserve to have my time spent on me. when im blogging im spending a lot of time with myself. the most honest and truest time one can spend with someone. open and sharing by blogging.
I love to write. although ive never considered pursuing it as a career, ive always loved to write. im a very naturally create person and ideas flow freely through me. I don't typically begin these blogs with a lot of purpose but as I go I become ore confident and enjoy it more. I love that moment right after completing a blog when I look back at it. not even the content honestly, just the size of it. the amount of words, how the paragraphs are aligned, how long it takes to scroll. I love it. I love writing. I love blogging.
how good does typing feel though, amiright or amiright???????
therapeutic. I need to get my feelings out and sometimes this is the best way. if something is driving me absolutely nuts, I write it out and suddenly I feel more at ease. like a weight has been lifted. that also gives me an opportunity to reread my thoughts and sort through them. ask myself if im being rational. ranting feels so good.
blogging is also a lot of fun. all other reasons aside, I really do enjoy it a lot. for all the reasons above but simply, because it makes me feel good. its the same sensation I get while im dancing, running or spin.
people don't always listen which can be a huge bummer. I trust my friends and feel comfortable talking to them but I know sometimes they don't always wanna hear my ramble. sometimes I don't even wanna hear myself ramble however, my blog always listens and loves it when I ramble. thanks blog for always being there for me
I blog because I can! im so fortunate to be able to read and write on technology that supports my blogging. ill always be incredibly grateful.
journaling is great for reminiscing. I always love looking back on previous entries. reliving moments from my past. the thoughts and feelings I had during different events that I almost forgot about!!! rereading old entries is a great way to tract your personal development and laugh at how ridiculous you once were. some old memories trigger a variety of feelings that I always love to experience.
see, I need to blog. I have a lot to say!
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